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Month: May, 2012

Can we reach our goals no matter what?

Have you ever felt that you are displeased with something? That you feel that you could have been better at something? The last 10 years, I have probabely never been truly satisfied with my body. I have always been the “fat” girl in my schoolgroup, always been the biggest one. Don’t get me wrong, I am not fat, but I’ve always been the biggest one, been the one that ate the most, the weakest one when it comes to food etc… Those feelings, are bad feelings. The Secret telles us that if we feel bad, we get negative thoughts, and if we have negative thoughts, we attract more of those negative things into our lives. I have always just been satisfied with the fact, that I am the biggest one, and that I will always have some extra “rolls of fat”… Don’t get me wrong, I am not fat, but I am not fit either, and I train over 14 hours with swimming, 3 hours strength and 2 hours of core every week. Well, not now… I am sick, just lying on the sofa everyday…. I don’t want this, I don’t think anyone knows how badly I want to train, get sweat and get exhausted (in a good way). The doctors can’t figure out what is wrong with me, although they said that I suffer from something called “the good girl- syndrome”. That I am never satified with anything (especially not with myself), I stress about everything, I have difficulties with saying no…, etc…. Nevertheless, I have started a project. Because my imunsystem doesn’t work at all any more, I have descided not to eat sugar. Yepp, I’m gonna stop eating ice cream, chocolate, chips, fast food, soda, cookies etc. I do this for myself, because I want to be satisfied with my body. AND my imunsystem will probabely be better (I hope). I really hope I will get some results 🙂

Have a nice day!

Marte

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Stress= my life

Hey everyone!
Kristin mentioned earlier that we have been very busy lately. Our school have loaded us with exams, tests and presentations that needs to be done before the summer holiday, and even more exams! I have stressed alot. The picture explains everything I feel right now. Lately, I have felt that I do too much. I worry over the smallest things, and everything that happends to me affects me, mostly in a negativ way. I sort of go to a school were we train alot. Because I have been sick alot this year, I haven’t managed to train as much as I should have. Guess what? I’m lying here with the flu right now. This is the SEVENTH time since January… Maybe now, you understand my desperation? The doctors can’t figure out what is wrong with me. I take pills for my imunsystem, which should keep me up and going, but nothing helps. It is very frustrating to be an athlete, when you always get sick and can never “do your best”… I try to stay positive, but I gonna be honest, it is very hard. Lately I have figured out that I stress more than I am aknown. Well, everyone have actually told me that since I was a child. I get stressed over the smallest things. Like, if I can’t catch the bus, or about which school I want to go to in the future, if I sleep too little etc.. The smallest things… I work, I go to school, I train alot and I am suppose to be social and “keep up” about what happends in our society… I can’t do it all… I am human, although I would like to be a robot sometimes. My biggest concern now these days is a running test at my school. First of all, I used to be very good at running. But, because of my illness this year, my shape is not exactly good. I am not affraid of pain, it is just that If I get a bad grade, it will ruin my characters for getting in to lawschool. Stress. I have thought about this so much, that I got sick. The reason for why I stress so much, is because of what happened to my dad… I had to grow up back then, I got a responsiblity. Since then, I worry about everything.

What I am trying to say, is that stress = no good. I am really trying to stay positive, but it is really hard. I need to stress less, and maybe if you have some advices you want to share with me/us? 🙂 Don’t say yoga, I have tried that, but it doesn’t work for me, unfortunately…

I also want to say something tragic that has happened. Earlier this week, Norway’s biggest Olympic hope, Alexander Dale Oen, died. Kristin and me are both swimmers, and we can’t describe what emptiness we feel. First of all, he was/is our biggest rolemodel. He made Norway famous under VM when he won the distance 100 m breast, when he swam for Norway because of the horrible massacre that happened to our country on the 22th July. He died this Monday in Flagstaff, only 26 years old… He cried for Norway, now, Norway cries for him!

Rest in peace, Alexander. You will always be our rolemodel.

Marte